Feels like I am going to vomit. I ate 2 slices of pizza, some cheesy bread, some cinnapie and had a beer.
I will accept a 2lb gain and start over tomorrow with an apple day.
I needed it emotionally. Some unhappy changes happening at work.
Still down 10 lbs so i am ok.
So this morning i was pleasently suprised to see i lost 3 lbs. I am down to 202.. YAY!!!
Which is cool cuz i only lost .5 the other day. I am now down 12.5 lbs.
I wanted to cheat so bad last night to with pizza and beer and candy. But I didnt and it paid off.
Braggs Liquid Amino's
I marinated a chicken breast in the Braggs liquid amino to give the chicken a soy/teriyaki flavor. And I baked it in the oven.
Break chicken up into washed cut up roman lettuce. Squeezed orange juice from 2 sections into salad. Add cinnamon and braggs to flavor as desired. The cinnamon gave it a sweet kick. Add remaining orange sliced to salad (cut up or sectioned).
9 lbs down. from 214 to 205.
I can't wait to get under 200!!
at 190 I am going to have a 1 dinner of pizza and beer!
at 175 I am going to get my hair done and new bra from VS,
at 160 I am going shopping.
So I did eat a fresco steak taco for dinner after only eating an apple yesterday and lost 1.5. 150 calories from taco bell. I needed a 'treat'.
Tonight I went to Applebee's and had a 7 oz sirloin and steamed broccoli.
Lost 5 lbs since monday. Still over 200. I am going to celebrate when I see that scale hit 199. I remember when I was tormented to be over 175.
Feeling good. Sleeping even better. Must be meant to be since monday the baby only wakes up 1 time a night and thats around 4 am when my husband gets up. However, when i get up at that time I usually crave sugars. Seems to be fading. I just hope it doesnt rear its ugly head.
carb cravings are killer!!!
This time around I am not announcing my diet out on facebook. Not announcing my weight loss and goals. Because if I fail and gain it back, well its humiliating. I have never been this heavy (not pregnant). I just cant fail. Besides people are so judgemental and criticial and expect you to fail. I am so over that.
Loading makes me crazy...
There is so much I want to eat. So much food I will miss. So much tastes I love. I go crazy. I get depressed when I am done eating and it makes me want to eat more. Its like something died. It's like a terrible addiction. I don't know why I have such an emotional attachment to food. But I have got to give it up. Or I will just get bigger and bigger and bigger. I am ready.
I quit smoking a year ago August. Best 15 lbs I ever gained. Hardest thing I ever did. Hardest thing I've had to maintain. Loosing weight was alot easier when I was a smoker. I smoked for 18 years. From age 14 to 33. When I was hungry I smoked more, it helped mentally and emotionally. Now I am trying to find that crutch to replace cigarettes. Now that I am not pregnant anymore, I want to start smoking in the worst way. Especially when I look at my stretched out belly and start to eat. I won't do