Thread: Please Please Help - severe depression

I'm so sorry for all that you are going through at the moment. You certainly have plenty to be stressed and upset over. Those feelings are only natural.

As far as feeling really depressed during this protocol....
I have found that its been especially difficult for me to cope with things lately as well. For me, personally, I am discovering just how much I "medicate" myself with food. During a normal situation, when I am not on hcg protocol, I can stuff my feelings away with food. During protocol, I am forced to face my feelings and deal with issues because I cannot turn to food to fill that emotional need.

I don't know if the same holds true for you, but I thought I'd share.

Have you read, "Weight loss apocalypse?" It's really amazing and talks a lot about emotional eating and the hcg protocol.

I really hope you feel better soon.

I have also been depressed at times during this protocol. Not to your extent, but then I haven't had the reasons you do. I have been worrying about money issues, due to not getting paid because of my own lack of keeping on top of things. I have also had some spotting, and have not had a period in the last couple of years. I figured it was the hcg. Mine isn't enough to change anything as of yet, but if I were in your shoes I would put my mental health and happiness first. The weight will come off in another month or two. Right now, I think you should take care of you first. You can get this straightened out in your mind and decide how you want to proceed now and then when your feeling better go back and try the diet again. I hope you feel better.

I think before I was slammed with The Bad News I was a bit cranky, now that I think of it. More raw - a male friend of mine, who actually is consistently a bull in a china shop when it comes to emotions in general, said something that offended me (I think it was actually about this diet, and how much more he knows about EVERYTHING than I do, blah blah blah) and instead of me being my usual calm, "keep everyone happy" self, I got really irked with him. He spent a few days after that being mad at me and saying "there's something wrong with you!" (he's known me many years, fwiw). Now, I didn't think my response was out of line, but I could see why he thought it didn't seem like me. So, yeah, maybe the whole time this has made me a little more sensitive and less patient. In that case it may even have been a good thing. But that, obviously, wasn't something that hurt me deeply or touched my heart in any way, it was just "arrrrrgh! I'm so sick of him being such a blowhard!" and I reacted.

But I guess I'm bringing that up because that DOES kind of indicate hormone activity, right? It was pretty consistent with PMS, for example. So then when something big and real was added to the mix, and I was in kind of a constant state of vulnerability, I had no defenses. None of the anger I had about the small stuff, and none of the anger I SHOULD have had about the potentially big stuff, just limp, sad exhaustion. I believe today it might be feeling a little better - now, that could be because I've reached out to you, and it could be because of the mere idea that this depression might not be real but just the side effect from something I have control over taking or not taking; it's probably because of both. I'm going to feel my way through the remaining two weeks, one careful day at a time.

But I'd love it if anyone else has stories of any sort of emotional swings or vulnerability or whatever that they'd attribute to the hcg. Crankiness, sadness, anything that just hasn't quite "felt like you"?

I don't want to give up. I've lost so many pounds and gotten so many compliments and I can't afford to re-do this program if and when I'm in a "perfect life", so I just want to do my best now and hopefully be in a completely different place, physically and mentally, in a month.....

By the way, ladibug, that "chewing on problems" stuff sounds familiar - WHAT the problems are isn't the issue, scale is relative and I'm well aware people have it much worse than I do too - but the chewing chewing chewing.... Like we can think our way out of it, or, somehow, magically think problems into not existing anymore. Maybe that's where the depression comes from. Essentially beating my head against an emotional wall for 2 weeks. "Is it true? Did he do it? Will I ever know? Will my life be okay anyway? Will I be in limbo forever? Can I ever feel better? Is it true? Did he do it?....." Arrrrrgh!

hismistress - are you taking any supplements? Some people take a supplemet - I believe it's called - 5HTP which to help with their mood. Anyone who is eating close to 500 a day is bound to be a little bit cranky but you get used to it.

I'd research this forum and look on YouTube for ideas on the different supplements other HCG users are taking to help with mood, energy, etc.

IMO, I don't think your attitute is totally due to the HCG, you have a lot of emotional issues going on right now. I wish you the best and good luck. It does get better.

Originally Posted by hismistress

By the way, ladibug, that "chewing on problems" stuff sounds familiar - WHAT the problems are isn't the issue, scale is relative and I'm well aware people have it much worse than I do too - but the chewing chewing chewing.... Like we can think our way out of it, or, somehow, magically think problems into not existing anymore. Maybe that's where the depression comes from. Essentially beating my head against an emotional wall for 2 weeks. "Is it true? Did he do it? Will I ever know? Will my life be okay anyway? Will I be in limbo forever? Can I ever feel better? Is it true? Did he do it?....." Arrrrrgh!

You seem to be in a state of "shock" due to the recent betrayal and other things going on. You need time to process what happened and then pick yourself up and keep moving forward. You can do it!

You are doing the best thing you can for you right now and that is take care of you. Each day it DOES get better.

Thank you for the encouragement. I searched this forum but found it hard to maneuver, however, my doc gave me approval for two supplements that might help. I'm hoping!