Crisis of faith i suppose. When does legitimate health care end and vanity set in? At what point does obsession with a health body become obsession with a perfect body. While i keep altering my goals to be what i consider sane what if it is not sane. Perhaps I was never meant to be "normal" perhaps the adaptation in my genetic structure precludes me from ever achieving what i want. This way leads to madness, how do i avoid that path. I am perfectly willling to starve myself to death if i knew it meant achieving the goals of my minds eye, but that wont happen. what is reasonable and how will i know it when i meet it?