ANYONE LOADING on SEPTEMBER 24 & 25th?

**ailuj** · January 30th, 2012, 08:41 AM

Hi there my beautiful friends! I'm sorry I continue to be so MIA. I'm glad we're all fb friends so at least we can keep track of each other there too. Well, I'm still hanging in here. I finally got an appointment scheduled with a gynecologist. I'm nervous to go to a new doctor, but she is at a location much closer to my house. My regular doctor, who's on maternity leave, is pretty far from me now since I moved. Also, she's a family practitioner. I just always went to her for my female stuff too. So as much as I'm nervous about my health and seeing a new doctor, it's definitely best I see a gynecologist for this issue. However, I couldn't get an appointment until 2/16. I'm going to call periodically to check and see if anything opens up sooner. More waiting in the meantime. I did end up going to an urgent care center on Thursday, but I didn't discuss my main problem. I already had the gyne appointment scheduled and was having another problem, so I just talked about the second problem. Without babbling too much, I was having some chest pain/discomfort that had been going on for about a week. I've previously had this issue and had my heart and lungs very thoroughly checked (the reason I'm still paying off medical bills) and nothing has been found to be wrong with me. So when it came about recently, I tried to ignore it for awhile, but then my paranoia got the best of me. My fear was that my first problem was a really, really bad thing and it was now causing other problems. Btw, try not to judge my paranoia too much

- remember I lost a lot of people in a short time to health problems and it's made me slightly nuts!

So anyway, that was my fear. So I went to the doctor about my chest pain. They did an ekg and chest x-ray and thank God, they found nothing. So that eased my worry, but I didn't get an explanation. Anxiety. Doctors love to use that one. And maybe that's all it is. I don't know. I hope. But I do have this original problem that I know I'm not imagining. I continue to pray that it has a benign explanation and hope I'll be able to get in earlier than the 16th. But at least I have something scheduled.

As for my weight, who knows??? Last I weighed was the last time I checked in here. 5 over LIW. But I ate like a pig over the weekend so no doubt I gained. I'm doing a fage day today. I really, really wish I could start another round!!! I just can't until I've been to the doctor. If my problem is ovary related, I don't think hcg is a good idea for me for the time being. But oh how I want to do another round. I need to lose another 15 for sure.

Okay, so there's my long update! Tater, I completely relate to your frustration about gaining/losing. It is WAY too easy to gain and it just doesn't seem right. I'm actually jealous that you're starting P2! Who would ever have thought I'd say that?! I think this will be good for you too. A nice break/detox like you said. Plus you'll start losing weight again! The date night with your hubby sounds really nice and delicious. Wouldn't it be nice to have a night like that and not gain a ton the next day? I probably would have gained 10. Ugh.

Fralline! How are you? Are you feeling better yet? Sounds like you caught a bad virus. Yuck. And it's the worst when it settles into your lungs. No fun at all - especially for running. I hope you're feeling better now. At least your weight has been good. Are you 2 under LDW? Amazing! Btw, I love how much you love your son's gf. I saw that pic on fb and she is definitely a beauty! I'm glad to hear she's just as beautiful on the inside.

Jessica, How are you? I saw the pic you posted on fb. How beautiful. How's the weather been? 2 degrees is so cold! How do your dogs like it? I bet you're so glad you got those boots. How's the scale been to you? Are you planning your next round?

Teddi, I hope you're doing well. Glad we're fb friends now.

Skinny, how are you? How's your mom doing? Is she home now? I hope you're all doing well!

Once again, thanks for listening, my girls. I'll try to be better about posting more often. I hope we're all just on a temporary lull here and posts will pick up a bit soon. Love you all! xoxo

**JAN776** · January 30th, 2012, 10:06 AM

Hello ladies!!!

Well let's see where to start. Tate how long are you going to stay on P2? How is it going so far?? I am sure you are having fun loading!!! I am jealous that you will be a BIG looser!

Julia When do you get into the OBGYN? I sure hope everything turns out alright! When do you plan to start P2 and how long will you stay on?

AFM - Well.... TOM has been quite a world wind & I quite seriously think I have PMDD. It seems to only really affect me every 5 to 6 months but it is REALLY REALLY bad! I have been so extremely depressed, suicidal thoughts & just an emotional basket case =( I haven't been able to sleep well so now I am like a zombie! Last night I finally slept so I am hoping that is a sign that it's over. I read that PMDD goes away a few days after you start your period but my emotions have lasted a few days after my period granting I am past the depression today. I think I am one of the oldest on here but do any of you know about this or someone else who suffers from it? My insurance starts in Feb so I will go then but hopefully since I only get this way every 5 to 6 months I will be in the clear for awhile. It seems when I do get it, it's worst and worst. I really hate feeling this out of control of my feelings & especially suicidal thoughts... I LOVE life... Yeah it totally SUCKS ASS sometimes... but I really really don't like this new development in the "getting older!" Anyway... I am 35, never had kids & don't really want them at this point so I don't know if that has anything to do with it or what... but I am rather annoyed with my body right now.

Anyway, as for P2... I definitely want to do another round I just don't know when I will start. I was thinking sometime in February to late Feb and I will go for 30 days.

**fralline** · January 30th, 2012, 12:50 PM

Happy MONDAY my lovely ladies.

Jessica- brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr 2 is way too cold! That would be a HUGE de-motivator for me

Do you have any kind of a gym or anything at your resort that you have access to? I haven’t heard of PMDD before, but I hope you get some relief soon, scary stuff. Why oh why are us ladies so lucky that we get to go through all of this emotional CRAP? Men just get to have some kind of a crisis and get to buy a sports car and start dating 20 year old twins!!!

Tater- You are the glue holding us together sometimes sister

Thank you. I too agree with being tired of the ups and downs. Im just glad there are some downs to counter act the ups. I didn’t have that for a long, long time. Sometimes you just have to throw caution to the wind and enjoy date night

with as much as you two both have going on and all if your kiddies, I have to think those are few and far between. Im excited to see how your P2 goes…you still going to do the 14 day version and see how it works?

Julia- so glad you have an appt. set., will keep my finger crossed for all good news. Glad they were not able to find anything as far as your ER visit. About a zillion years ago, or so it seems, I had a similar deal….but suddenly I couldn’t speak, my heart was racing, I could hear myself try to talk but no words were forming. I was at work, and new enough to go into my managers office and try to communicate somehow that I needed help. I too had all the tests done, and they all came back fine. Anxiety was diagnosis then too – I was under a lot of stress at the time, mostly cheating husband related, and a little bit of work stress and finances..I think it just all got too overwhelming and all hit me at once. Thankfully Ive not ever had it happen again. But maybe anxiety IS what it is for you again this time. You have a lot on your mental plate right now…glad it was all ok though :-) and glad to see you post again. Ive missed ya!

Teddi- I hope your girlfriend is doing ok. I also hope your man is still HOT :-)

Skinny- thinking about you, sending all my mojo your way for strength and hope your mama is doing better.

AFM- I may as well start P2 today, I had a freaking gorgefest weekend! Friday after work I was just DONE – I went home napped for two hours in my chair, husband made dinner, I ate and went to bed! Whhhew…guess my sickly body needed some healing time! Saturday was the girly brunch with jello shots, wine, and every kind of carb and sugar you can imagine…and I partook in it all. Then as soon as I got home it was off to the Olive Garden for dinner, again with the carbs and wine…but OMG it was so good!! Then off to the symphony where all that food kicked in and I was lulled into yet another nap, on my husbands shoulder this time. Sunday went to a friends house where he had made homemade lasagna and garlic bread – do you see a theme here? So it was a 5 lb weekend for me. But it was all worth it. So from 2 under to 3 over :-) I will work hard to get back down this week, just in time for Superbowl Sunday! Hahaha My cold is lingering but I do feel a TON better. Im going to try to run for a couple minutes tonight and see how it feels. Over the weekend I just decided to make it a full week and not run til today ….I can certainly tell in the way my pants feel today that Im up a bit in weight and that I haven’t run in a week. Looking forward to some “looser” times. Ok girls, ironically, Im off to lunch! Hahah but it’s a yummy salad so all is well.

**ailuj** · January 31st, 2012, 07:44 AM

Morning ladies! Oh boy, it sure is much more quiet than it used to be around here.

Jessica, I'm so sorry to hear what you've been going through. That sounds absolutely terrible. And scary to be having thoughts like that. I'd definitely see a doctor when you can. I've heard of PMDD, but honestly not that familiar with it. I don't know anyone who has it. Do you know how they treat it? Possibly something hormonal I would imagine. You mentioned you were able to sleep the other night. How about last night? Do you think it has passed now? Are you feeling better? I hope so. The things we have to deal with as women. We are so affected by our hormones... My appointment with the obgyn isn't scheduled until the the 16th, so a couple more weeks. I'm going to keep calling there periodically to check and see if anything has opened up sooner. I'd rather not wait any longer, but at least I have something scheduled. I just really hope I can talk to this doctor a bit off record about my symptoms. I want her to know what's truly been going on, but need her to keep it off my records. Otherwise, my insurance will say I have a pre-existing condition if I've had any symptoms in the past 12 months. And if something is really wrong, I will need the insurance to cover it! So frustrating. It's a good thing you'll have employer coverage soon. That's the best kind to have!

Fralline, thanks for your well wishes. I am really hoping it's not bad news either. Hoping and praying everyday. Thanks for sharing your ER story. Sounds really scary. Mine has never been that extreme feeling, but chest pain is always scary I think. I know anxiety can do crazy things so I'm really hoping that's the cause of my chest symptoms. Unfortunately, I know it's not the cause of my other symptoms.

I'm glad you're starting to feel better. Did you attempt any running at all? Your food sounds delicious. Good thing you were under, so you didn't go too far over. I'm sure you'll get back down in no time. And like you said, just in time for super bowl Sunday! We have toyed with the idea of driving over to Indiana to partake in some of the super bowl festivities. Indianapolis is only a few hours from here. I'm sure it would be crazy busy, but could be fun! We'll see...

Hi tater! Thanks for sharing the link to the book. I'll have to check it out. Sounds like a good one! And what perfect timing to find it right as you're starting P2. How's that going? Is today your VLCD 1?

Oh btw, I weighed myself this morning after my fage day yesterday. 6.8 over LIW. WOW. So who knows how much I weighed prior to the fage day. I can't eat anything without blowing up completely the next day. Grrr. All the more reason I'd like to do a good, clean round 4. Hopefully soon.

**JAN776** · January 31st, 2012, 03:03 PM

Hello ladies!

Well I think I am over the PMDD for now. I am not really sure how it's treated I think probably change me to a different birth control pill or some other hormone therapy. I can't really judge how I slept last night... well because let's just say I didn't sleep alone =)

So it looks like Fralline & Tate are on P2... I still haven't picked a day but probably later in February when Julia starts. I know I want to start right now but I don't have the control do stick to it right now. I need to reel my bad habits in better & then start. I am still having WAY to much fun here despite the last week or so of PMDD =(

Anyway, I will have to do a longer check in later. I have to get ready for work =(

**fralline** · January 31st, 2012, 07:12 PM

Just a quick check in..I was cruising through the posts and just threw up a little in my mouth when I read Jessicas post that said I was in P2 again..hahahaha I believe that is Teddi and Tater on P2 again

AFM I ran yesterday only 2.5, but it felt alright..my lungs didnt explode. Im down a lb today so only 2 over now..yipeeeee..back in the window!
Jessica perhaps your head was still spinning from your non-alone sleeping..hehehe
Tater - hope all is well with you and that your VLCD's are going well
Teddi - you too!

Ms.Gulia - I love you!
Skinny - thinking about you...hope all is well. xoxoxoxoxo

**Tate** · January 31st, 2012, 08:16 PM

Hey everyone--I LOVE to see this place picking back up again.

Sorry I haven't been around so much the last couple of days. The Wizard of Funk must have struck our little thread, because I've been in a mighty funk--just feeling the blues and wanting to crawl in a little hole and stay there for a while. Not really sure what is going on, but I'm thinking it may be related to loading for P2. I've been enjoying some deliciously craptastic food, and I'm sure my body is just in a tailspin, wondering what the heck I'm doing. Donuts? Yes, please. Extra Chic-Fil-A sauce with those nuggets? Sure, why not?!? Oh deary, I've done some damage, and now I am 100% geared-up and ready for VLCD 1 tomorrow. I thought I was going to cut the loading short and start VLCD today, but I got scared of being hungry the first week and decided to do the full 2-day load.

I can't tell you how much this Weight-Loss Apocalypse book is rocking my world. I'm pretty sure this author wrote it exactly for me. Her blog (Weight-Loss Apocalypse Blog) is also fascinating, and I think her work is really going to help me to do this P2 right. Jessica, you asked if I was going to do the mini-P2 as I had originally planned, but I'm going to go for the minimum suggested 23-day round, mainly because I am so serious about following this to a T this time around. I want to reap the full-benefits of the protocol and heal this girl UP, so I can move beyond this hormonal, emotional roller coaster!

Jessica--My heart really goes out to you with the severe PMS depression. I'm so glad to read you are feeling better. I would highly suggest reading this book I've been talking about, because the author goes into great detail about how it is possible to heal hormonal imbalances with P2 done a certain way. (I promise, I'm not working for commission!) It's not a long book, and it is definitely worth the read before you begin your next P2. I hear ya on needing to be in the zone and ready before you get started again. I forced my Round 2, wasn't mentally prepared and it was a total and complete bust, so I say take your time and start when it is right for you!

Julia--It is so good to see your posts, friend! You have been missed. I'm so sorry you have been dealing with pain and fear! I'm glad things checked out okay with your heart when you went to the doctor, but I know you still have this primary health concern. I absolutely do NOT judge you for being worried about these things. It is only normal that you would be! Hoping you can get in before the 16th and that the appointment will be exactly what you need it to be. I know you need to get to the bottom of this! Yeah, the 6 pounds up sucks, but at this point maybe just try not to stress about it and know we will all be doing a very clean P2 this next go-round. I think we were all so crazy and pro-cheating last time that we didn't have the good results that were possible, so this time we are ON IT. I know you have so much going on, but try to read the book...or at least look through this blog. It's just a jewel...and it is convincing me there is no other way to do P2 than the way she is suggesting. It's giving me a lot of hope.

Fralline--So happy you were able to enjoy a fun weekend after having a crummy, sickly week! Sometimes the 5-pound gain is just worth it, isn't it? It'll all be off in no time. Glad you are feeling better and had a successful run without your lungs exploding! You are totally right about it being wonderful to get out with my husband once in a while. There are days (like today) where I feel like I am losing my mind in this house, so getting out and having a nice meal and some drinks without cleaning up spills and wiping mouths is simply amazing. Of course, I love 'em all to pieces, but adult time is GOOD. ;-)

Teddi and Skinny--thinking of you and missing you!

Much Love to All!!

**Tate** · February 1st, 2012, 04:15 PM

Oh no, I killed the thread with my verbosity and Weight-Loss Apocalypse Doctrine!!!

**fralline** · February 1st, 2012, 06:56 PM

Oh Tater..you are so silly..hahahaha...I too enjoyed Ms. Gulias edit comment..tee hee. Hope everyone enjoyed this fine hump day...Not too much going on around here these days...
Tater- your gorgefest sounds so yummy!!!!
Jessica- Im so glad you are feeling better...I hope that crap never comes back!!! I'm 43 so perhaps I had better check into that..ugh

AFM- (aside from being old) I'm down 2, so back at LDW..yaaaay!!! Tonight I ran 4.15 miles and then dinner was ready and I had to get off the treadmill!! Still have an irritating cough...but it doesn't happen when I run...I could have stayed on there forever!! ugh

Love you girls...xoxoxoxo...miss you!!!!

**ailuj** · February 2nd, 2012, 10:38 AM

Hey girls! Tater, you are too funny. You most certainly did not drive us away! I did read a bit of her blog. Loved the post about how we value ourselves. Ugh. So true. I need to train myself to need less external validation for sure. I'm glad you're finding this book helpful. I know I haven't read it, but I'm sure I'll agree. After this joke of a round 3, I've been saying that what I think I really need is a good, clean, cheat-free round 4 so I can actually lose the weight I need and stabilize! I think you're absolutely right about our last round. We were such big cheaters! I was drooling over your loading foods. I LOVE chick fil A. So, so, so, good. I wish I could be in P2 with you right now. I hope it's going well. I'm sure it is since you've found this awesome book!

Fralline, glad to hear your weight is back down and you've picked up the running again. I'm sure it'll help clear your lungs out. Funny how that works with the no coughing while you're running huh? So what are your plans for the super bowl? I would imagine you must be going to or having a party, our social butterfly!

Jessica, Sounds like some interesting stuff going on with you after your not sleeping alone night. Do you have fun man stories to share?

I'm glad your PMDD has passed. I hope it never comes back!

As for me, finally down to my good ol' 5 above LIW. Geez, how sad that I have to get down to 5 over. I'll just have to keep waiting for another round. No luck on getting into the doctor earlier. I've been calling every day to see if something has opened up, but nothing yet. The 16th seems so far away. I keep telling myself - at least I have something scheduled. Other than that, not much going on here. My daughter competed in the regional city science fair, as I'm sure you saw on fb. She placed 16th out of almost 200 kids! Awesome! Unfortunately, only the top 10 move on to the big citywide science fair. She was pretty bummed, but I'm so very proud of her. Besides, I'm convinced it was the third judge she got. She literally looked like someone they pulled in off the street. They were short judges so you never know... The judging session was super short and this woman did not even read her actual report. I don't want to sound like a sore loser, but there were some issues that day. Apparently there were new people in charge this year and it showed with their lack of organization. Kind of disappointing. Okay, I'll shut up about that now. I needed to vent that to someone! I'm not saying any of this to other parents. I'd really sound like a sore loser to them I bet! Other than that, I'm looking forward to tomorrow! My daughter has no school, so we're having a mother/daughter day. Love those! Probably lunch, movie, book store. I jokingly told my husband, who's working tomorrow, that my daughter and I were going to drive to Indianapolis for our mother/daughter day to partake in the super bowl festivities. He tried to hide it, but he looked so upset that we would do this without him! Too funny. Okay, I'm just going on and on, so I'll wrap this up now. Hope you're all having a great Thursday. Love you! xoxo

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