Dear Kelli, Paula, Patty123 and Larisse
I can't tell you how much your sounding board and advice means. Somewhere in all of it is my worst fears, not exactly sure what it is but certainly something to do with what others think of me. thakn you Thank you very much
kelli, I seperated when my youngest on was only 11 months old (divorced 6 months later). My situation was untenable otherwise I would never have wanted to be without my sons every other weekend. My youngest is now almost 14 and I have been married for 10 years to the most amazing giver man and we are very compatible. Being without my children during their very early years was harder than I can even come up with words to state. I was constantly worried about their welfare until I came to realize that he was a grown man and knew where the emergency room was (took me 2 years at least to be more calm about it). My sons are good young men now partly because they got to see their mother happy. You obviously are a very bright woman (law degree, bar exam!), beautiful, forthright with your feelings and a good mom. you will figure out the right thing to do in the right steps. Perhaps you husband is feeling the male versoin of post partum, lashing out, anger burst, nervous burst and doing so with drinking with the guys to pretend he doesn't have responsiblities of a child?
thanks again everyone, I feel better really.>>!~
HUGS from NH