What should I do? I totally blew it. On VLCD 7-10 I have taken my hcg, but cheated every day, eating things I haven't eaten in 6 mo! Should I count tomorrow as day 11 or restart counting tomorrow as vlcd1? I am wondering that if eating 4 days of crap erases just the four days or all 10 days so far - yes there was sugar, fat, and starch!? I was hoping to only go the 23 days. My past rounds (99% non-cheating!) were long rounds and I was hoping for a short round this time. How bad have I screwed up? Not starving - just feeling deprived since Nov. and have gone way overboard.
So - is tomorrow day one or day 11 for me? I hoping that by typing this, I will be accountable for my actions!!! I'm off to bed and look forward to your thoughts when I wake up.
Its my understanding that you just keep going you cannot erase what you have done so might as well suck it up and move forward and i mean that in a kind way as I am with you on this I start TOM and cheated 2 days in a row and i am thinking there is more to this then just the need to have something i cannot have but maybe mentally we need a break from this whole program ... i am in the process of deciding weather i will end this long round early (im on day 30 i think) or if im gonna try to finish i think at this time in the game it wouldnt really be for me or against me either way, whats gone is gone and i can manage to keep it gone its the whole trying to lose lose lose when my heart isnt really in it anymore. you and i both need not beat ourselves up over this after all we have had success more then failure right? im just happy to have lost as much as I have and if i should end this early i will wait a couple to few months before doing another round and if i decide to keep truckin along i am just gonna take it one day at a time...I will be making a decision tonite if im gonna stop or keep going...so hopefully we both will get through this with positive attitudes ya know?
It's really up to you what "Day" you want to call it...Either way you have a choice. Since you have the hcg in your system you could just cut your lack of losses, accept your gain and go until day 23 and just accept what you lost. Or start this day as Day 1 and just go until your new Day 23. As long as you don't go over the 40 (or is it 46?) days then how ever long you want to go is up to you... NOW,that said, what ever you choose to do...NO MORE CHEATING!!!! (there, you've been chastised. Consider yourself whacked with a celery stick.) Get back on the horse and stick to protocol! You can do this, You've done it before and you can do it again...I hope that helped :)