I can't handle the stress anymore! I've finished a second round of P2 and lost a total of 73 pounds so far. I entered onto phase 3 about a week ago and since then I've done nothing but losing and gaining the same 3 pounds. I had a really bad stomach flu all night and was really sick. My mother was drunk last night too and got viciously angry at me for getting ill. I contracted something from school. She yells at me while I'm in the middle of being sick and I don't know what she is saying. I come out and I get a 2 hour lecture of how "I blew off her medical expertise" when I didn't have a flippin clue what she was saying to me. I had taken pepto bismal that my boyfriend had given me but I thought it was the same thing as immodium that she was shoving in my face. She said take this stuff and I said, it's ok I have already taken something and she took that as me blowing her off then she got so angry at me she was really mean. All the while I am running to the bathroom being sick every 5 minutes. I didn't want to take triple doses of the same drug and get even sicker.
Anyways, this morning I got on the scale and I was up 1.2 pounds! I thought for sure I would have lost weight. I'm now 4 pounds over my LIW and I don't know what to do. I have done an egg day and two steak days in one week since coming off but the weight keeps piling on. I eat nothing but protocol foods, no cheese, milk, yogurt, or anything sugary. I want to cry from the stress and anxiety. I have full time university classes right now and I can't keep my head straight.
I feel ill and gross and don't know what to do. Should I do a steak day today? Or an egg day? I have to get this weight off. It keeps creeping up and up...please someone tell me what to do...and why is my mother drunk all the time?
I'm so sorry, honey! Being sick causes your body to hold onto water. Don't do a steak day or anything because I don't think it would do any good while you're sick. Get your water in and try to get your protein up as much as you can though I know that's rough when you feel lousy.
And about your mother--not much we can do about that but pray. I'm so sorry!
Darlin' you have done a tremendous job with the weight loss!! Anyone would be down after staring at porcelain all night. Give yourself a break. If there is anywhere but home to crash, do it so you can catch some sleep. Eat your normal P2 diet but add more of the protein and when your stomach is feeling better push the water. When your body is well, it will start releasing the water and you will lose those few pounds. It won't occur overnight...the magic number on this diet seems to be 3 days but hang in there. You are a success and you deserve to know it. Texdobe
OMG you poor girl you I am so sorry your having to deal with all this and it doesnt help to add the stress of your mother on you....Take the advice of the experts on here they do know what they are talking about. Having grown up around drunks and into my adult like as recent as last year, I have cut all ties with anyone who stresses me out much of those people are drinkers and drama queens, since then my life has been wonderful in that aspect as for the weight issues, i am going through the ups and downs as well but I have decided rather then stress over that too I am just reading what ever i can on here and taking in the info, doing it and taking it one day at a time....you have done a fabulous job thus far dont let anything or anyone ruin for you.....stay focused on YOU! i hope it all gets better and hugs to you
Thank you everyone for your kind words. I really appreciate that everyone on this forum is so supportive and nice. I will eat normally today and see how that goes, if I can. I will deal with the weight fluctuations later. My bigger problem is my mother and how she did two rounds with me and lost all her weight. She stopped drinking while doing the rounds but always goes back to it. And she drinks like a bottle of wine a night. She bought me a bottle of red wine and before I could even have a sip of it, she drank all of it in a span of 2 hours.
It's so stressful for me because I learned to trust her again, and now she keeps hurting me and being extremely mean. She says the most horrible things and expects me to be totally respectful. I'm almost 22 years old and have to live at home due to the fact that she needs someone to take care of her. I have 7 months until done university but until then I'm stuck here at home with her. She's been like this most of my life and she has caused my father to go off the deep end on more than one occasion. Now he is gone and lives in a different part of the country. It's scary because for the last 3 months she has been "nice" and not mean to me. But whenever she goes back to the wine she becomes this horrible monster who is so mean and hurtful that I can't take it anymore. I'm too old for this, I'm not a child anymore and she doesn't seem to realize that. She treats me like crap and if I happen to be ill and not be perfectly what she wants me to be, then she basically rakes me over the coals for it.
As well, I wanted to lose weight, but I mostly did this HCG diet so she would leave me alone. For years she told me how fat and ugly I was and how even though I had a boyfriend for the last 7 years, she said he was just making me fat so I couldn't get anyone better. How mentally screwed up is that for her to say? She'd have "talks" with me about my weight and tell me how she was worried I was going to die and crap like that. Well, I could never talk to her about her stupid drinking, and that would kill her a lot faster than weight would kill me. But she would tell me time and time again how she had a hard time loving me as her daughter because I was so hideous and obese and that I was too ugly to love and that she was ashamed she had spawned such a disgusting demon child. All of this are true things that she has said to me over the years growing up. And last night was the straw that broke the camel's back. I am so stressed and have so many anger issues it is driving me insane. I want to kill her some days and it takes all my energy to hold back my feelings of total rage. I don't need shit like this when I am back to school full time trying to make something of myself.
I apologize to everyone for the rant, I just need to get my anger out. I'm so angry all the time.
So sorry your mom treats you this way. I guess you have to put up with her for 7 more months, then hopefully you can get a job so you can move out on your own. At the rate she's going, her liver will wear out one of these days.
If your over 18, I think it's time for you to get work and rent a room somewhere and get out of there.
I know what you are saying, I had to get out of my parents house when I was 18, so unhealthy. Even though I got into a lot of trouble in the outside world, It was better than staying there. I think some sort of church might help, any kind of free therapy type of thing. I think you need some good guidance now. We can be here for you anytime, but I think you need something closer to you to help you climb out of this pit you are in. Are you depressed because of this? I have anger too. I bottle it all up. I am 45 now and still working on things. You are Wonderful and look what you have accomplished, losing all that weight and taking on full time classes. And by the way, I think you'll be happier with the weight off it just makes doing the things you want to do much easier.