AimMee

VLCD 15

I ate a graham cracker today. I don't even like graham crackers. So, that's how this round is going.

It's been almost a year since I last attempted around. It was a complete and utter failure - a disaster, really - and I completely went off the rails. I was also bummed to feel that the dynamic on this site had shifted over time and had become more catty, judgmental, bossy, and rude. So, I disappeared. I disappeared from the site and from the diet. And then I rediscovered myself back at 175lbs. Sigh.

I've been through a lot this year in my personal life; much more than I'd care ...

I've spent a great deal of time on the forums, forging virtual friendships, offering supports, experiencing highs and lows of others, and Thankfully, gaining support from many of you.

That being said, this is not the place for me any longer. Too many chiefs, not enough Indians. Too much bickering, too much judgement, and far too many unqualified know it alls.

I wish the best to everyone on this journey. Somewhat sad to branch off on my own, but I think it will be more ...

So, I cheated yesterday. In a big way. A big, huge, large cheat. The reason/excuse doesn't matter. The food I ate doesn't matter. What matters is: I cheated.

The strange part? I feel really good today. I gained almost three pounds over night. I only have 8 injections left. But sometimes you just have to stop worrying. I made my choice and now I'm living with it. And for some reason, I woke up laughing. No clue why. I think maybe I was much more stressed than even I'd ...

Not every round will be alike. You know that, I know that, we all know that. Sometimes it's a hard thing to keep in mind. Just because you've had a bad round doesn't mean your next round will be bad too. And just because you've had good rounds doesn't mean your next round might not be a difficult one.

Unfortunately, I've been experiencing that. This round hasn't been a complete bust - I have lost. Sadly, I'm only 8lbs below my LIW from my round that ended in November. Of course, ...

Ahhhhh. How nice it is.

If you're not doing anything different day to day, and you're POP, you don't have to weigh yourself every day. You know this. I know this. But it's difficult NOT to, isn't it? It's like getting up on Christmas and rushing to the scale to see what Weighty Claus brought you! The trouble with this is that most of us slow down midway through our rounds. When is it more imperative to keep your motivation high and your disappointment low? Close to the end ...

Well slap my *** and call me Sally!

After the week I had last week, I was thankful to get back on the losing track at ALL. Historically, at this point in my round (three weeks into VLCD days), I never drop more often than about a pound every three days. Someone, somewhere is looking down on me, as I've lost 3.8lbs in the past three days! Unheard of for me!

While this is certainly exciting in and of itself, there's something more exciting about it. Well, two things. ...

Well, it wasn't a whoosh in grand terms, but it was something. Woke up to a 1.5lb loss this morning, which was MORE than welcome after a week of hellish gains for no apparent reason.

I did take out my 2nd fruit last night and replaced it with a protein. Perhaps I am/was too low on protein, perhaps it was just coincidence. I don't plan on making this a habit because I'm a firm believer in keeping the fruit in your diet (I don't want to have trouble adding it back in during P3), ...

A couple of days ago, I was flat-out pissed. Now I'm just befuddled and a little sad.

I woke up to a pound gain today. VLCD 21. Couldn't begin to tell you why, because I have no idea why. POP. Plenty of water and sleep. Not particularly stressed.

I'm truly at a loss. I don't know what's going on, and I'm not sure I can convince myself to care much longer. 21 days in and I'm only 3 pounds lighter than my LIW from November, which I stabilized perfectly at. I've ...

VLCD 20... woke up down 0.3. That's the good news. The bad news: I'm still over a pound heavier than I was around this time last week. I'm not as pissed off as I was yesterday, but it's still discouraging.

As I was telling a friend this morning, ups and downs happen... Stalls DEFINITELY happen. But me personally? Not only is gaining during P2 at any point completely aggravating, NOTHING chaps my *** more than re-gaining weight that I've just recently lost. Perhaps it's a mental ...