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This has been a really long round, and my first one. My stats are as follows:

Week 1: - 6.6
Week 2: - 3.8
Week 3: - 2.6
Week 4: - 3.2
Week 5: - 1.8
Week 6: - 0.0
Week 7: - 0.8
Week 8: - 1.0 (so far)

I started at 171. Today, I am at 146.4. The longer I go on, the better the chances of a cheat because I have been deprived so long. I cheated in Week 6 - so obvious, isn't it? A good deal of that was because I was sick with ...

Its embarrassing to confess, but I didn't lose ANYTHING this week...or rather, that Superbowl / Strep throat cheat set me back an entire week. I feel like I wasted 7 days worth of HCG trying to get back down to where I had been. Technically, I lost...but it was re-losing, so it just wasn't the same. Looking at my Excel spreadsheet today and it says "Total Week Six Loss: 0" hurts. I still don't * quite * regret it. I regret the punishment I had to take, but at the time, I was very sick ...

I don't hate myself. I made a conscious decision. It wasn't informed by having something yummy and tempting in front of me. I haven't been knocked on my arse this badly in a while. I can't believe I feel this awful. My daughter was out sick from school all of last week because of strep throat. I took care of her all last week. Her father declined his time with her because his wife is pregnant and they didn't want to take the chance.

So, of course, you take care of your kid as a mother ...

A drama filled day. Ex-husband. Second opinion. I guess that's enough said, even though I'm still stewing about it. Here's the gist: he's a controlling, manipulative sociopath with a God-complex/superiority complex. I took my daughter to the doctor today. I told the ex her diagnosis. He insists on seeing HIS doctor. I relent. We drive 30 minutes to his doctor. His doctor gives him the diagnosis that HE wanted and had already decided on. Because he got a "last minute appointment", he wanted ...

I'm now on VLCD 14 - 2 weeks in. While 2 weeks has passed quickly, it has also passed slowly. I know, "It was the best of times, it was the worst of times". Perhaps I should not look at my calendar and see how much longer I have to go...4 weeks. I start P3 on February 11th, unless I decide to go longer. I have opted to do a long round first. I figure, I'm already in the thick of it and I wouldn't want my sacrifices to go to waste.

I hope to get down to the 140s with a ...

I'm anxious and trying not to be. I'm waiting on a call about a job that I have a good shot at getting. Its already 2 PM (nearly) so I doubt I'll hear anything today. Patience is a virtue, but its not one I have a lot of. I'm also anxious that should I get this job, which would change so much in my life and make it better, how am I going to handle doing the HCG diet? I will stick with it no matter what because this seems to actually be working...I just feel anxiety over getting the job and how I ...

This is my first post. These are pretty much for me. I don't want to bore everyone out there in cyberspace.

In November of 2010, I weighed 182. That's just crazy. I have pictures from this summer of me. They frighten me. I look so heavy in the face and stomach. I'm 5'3.5" and 29 years old. There is no reason I should be this large, especially since I was always a small person. I have a medium-to-large frame, with "Xena: Warrior Princess" shoulders and 44" hips. ...