Unhappy? Keep your mouth shut.
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, April 9th, 2011 at 08:50 PM (1938 Views)
So in general, if you become depressed and this diet makes you feel like you will NEVER be happy again, people don't want to hear that. They just want bright, happy people 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.
So I blog when I become depressed.
I imagine there is a darker side to this diet if you search the blogs. It's not all puppies, kittens, magic and shooting rainbows out your ***!
I start P3 tomorrow and I realized once again that if I want to remain thin I will have to continue to never eat any of the things I really enjoy every again because I can't stop once I start.
And yet, becoming large again is not an option either as doing that will steal your life from you. You lose your spouse then you lose your house and people tend to not take you very serious at work if you are larger. Then society sees you as a lazy, weak person and you become the butt of everyone's jokes. That or they pity you.
Unless of course you are a guy.
Then you can stuff your effing face, but not drink Dr. Pepper anymore and lose weight and tone up. The gender that is REQUIRED to be thin and sexy to win/keep a mate has the hardest time staying that way.
I was so excited about getting to eat tomorrow and now all those foods I was looking forward to seems like I am just cheering to eat cardboard. "YAY! You just completed 30 days of complete and total self control and torture. To reward you we will now let you eat dry hamburger for breakfast with a bowl of dry chicken and lettuce for lunch. You may then have a dry steak with dry cauliflower for dinner! HELL YEAH!"
WTF kind of life is that?!?! And you think "Well, it's only for 3 weeks"...no, it's not. Once I get beyond that then I COULD add carbs and sauces back in IF my body doesn't gain from them. But it does. So really there will be no sauces in my future. I can handle no bread, candy or fast food, if I could just have my effing sauces. Think about all that tasty crap you eat ON your foods. That hotdog...how good would it taste without mustard and ketchup? How about that salad, how good is it without some kind of dressing? Your steak without it being covered in something?
Granted I WILL be following the diet to a T but I now must question what kind of life it will be then. Is there anything in my life that I really have any joy in? Not really. My life is so boring that the highlight of each day is my meal and what kind of amazing taste I will get to experience...
Can't I just run the eff away from this life, eat all the stuff I want and become a heavy girl and start a new life with people who don't remember the little me. Don't expect me to be little or stay that way. No preset ideals. People that love me for me because they never knew the thin me.
So ends this chapter of my life, but where to now?