Journey to ONEderland . .

Hi, I just wanted to post an update on where I am on the journey and to thank you for your support and company along the way. It is great reading about your progress and struggles because somewhere in there it helps me with all the things I am going through.

Working my way back to stability. I have been working on eating stable P3 food items . . . working on getting in the veggies but they are in there. I am still above LIW but coming down, hopefully it will all gently come even in time. I have been missing for a minute because I just got overwhelmed with holding it all together with everything going on in my life plus obsessing over maintaining control of hcg's P3.

Now that my head is clearer, and I am no longer wading through fog and mud, I recognise that I probably was not really having a tough time as I thought with maintaining in P3. I was actually holding it together I was just obsessing over every little detail and pound. It just all got to be a bit much with everything going on in my head and I just lost focus. I could not see the obvious and simple things that needed to be done. In frustration, I let it all go and the expected happened . . . I gained weight but it is coming off again and I am getting back on track.

In order to get my life on track and healthy in the truest sense, I have to fix the way that I deal with situations, emotional and otherwise so that a couple years from now I won't be right back where I started .. . trying to accomplish the same goal that I have today. It is a process and I am working on it.

I am ok with the fact that this journey may take me a bit longer than I projected but I feel better about the fact that I am not just working on losing weight but working on fixing what caused me to gain weight in the first place. I think that is best because I love that I now have a solution to get me to goal with hcg but I do not want to use it as a crutch where I can gain if I want because I can lose it again by doing another round.