Undersize Me... My Hcg Journey

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Weigh-in: 122
Weekly goal: 120

These last few days -- after ridding myself of the wretched flu, or whatever it was that I had -- were really productive. Well, with the help of 1 Senecot, and dialing down the cheating, they were. Finally I am looking at 122 on the scale. I can't believe I've been so inefficient at this diet that it's taken me 4 weeks to lose 7 pounds. I'm trying to psych myself up for the last 7. I feel like warning my kids that it's not going to be pretty around here, but it's not healthy for a mom to do that. Warnings are healthy -- ok, they're common -- but focusing on weight isn't something I want my girls to see me do. I want them to be preoccupied with the cultivation of their minds and bodies and not worry about fitting into a certain size (like I do)...

A few days ago, I came across a picture of LeAnn Rimes. Not being a country music fan, I was ready to dismiss the picture, but then noticed her ribs and hip bones protruding. More disturbing was that the picture wasn't candid -- she posed, proud of her sinewy corpse in a bikini as the headline screamed, "LeAnn Rimes at 100 lbs!!!". Most disturbing of all, was that I felt a pang of jealousy. Before someone sends the men in white coats after me, let me explain. I *don't* want to look like that. While looking through pictures, I found one of myself at about 110 lbs. I looked like I couldn't fight my way out of a paper bag. Truly, my desire to be 100 lbs would be a temporary one; I could eat my way back to health...

Oh! All the chocolate I could have!!!

Have a great week everyone! I've started putting a goal on my blog... maybe it'll keep me from cheating!?