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Who is this girl?

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I suppose I should take it as a compliment when someone says "you look like a different person". It doesn't always feel like a compliment though. It is like they are saying I looked so bad before. I guess I would like how I used to look to vanish from the face of the earth. I don't want to be reminded of it. I guess somewhere inside I thought this is how I looked... until I saw a picture that is. It is a weird thing being fat. You never quite think you are as fat as you are. I was watching Project Runway and the designer was going on and on about how hard it was making clothes for this plus sized woman and how bad she looked and nothing fit her. She was a size 14!!! I was embarrassed for the designer being so ignorant but it really brought up stuff for me since I am a size 14 right now (almost 12). 90 something pounds later and I am still considered overweight and plus sized. I just want to be normal and I don't want to think about food all the time or weight or everything associated with it. Don't know if it will happen in this lifetime but I am hopeful. I guess when I think about it I am a different person now. Maybe what they are saying is just the reflection of something so much bigger, something deep inside that has changed. I will embrace it because ...they are right I really am different now!

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  1. redefiningme's Avatar
    Congratulations with your victorious weight loss!!! Yay!

    The guy from Project Runway, Ven, is an ignoramus. Really. He needs to lose fat himself.
  2. MeganP's Avatar
    You are different in many ways! Congrats on the loss of 90 lbs. people only say that because well your 90 lbs lighter of course you'll look different hun, but mostly you'll have changed inside ( in a good way less stress on organs) and how you think about food eating ect, really you are different in many ways since the beginning of your journey. Dont get upset when people say it. Embrace it as a sign of positive energy that people can see you changing physically and mentally . It keeps a person sane. Congrats again 90 lbs is amazing!
  3. Newjulie's Avatar
    P --- please take it as a compliment --- it is your choice and I am sure the comment was well meaning. I have said to people in the past "You look terriic!" and had the response of "oh, did I look that bad before?" So now i try to say "YOU look particularly great today!"
    We are going thru lots of changes and I agree with REdefining and Megan.

    We need to make sure we frame everything in a positive light so we can move forward. his is about YOU , not about them.
    You know you did the work --- 90 lbs is a tremendous loss no matter how you look at it. YOU did the work --- just be happy!

    XOXO