shellby

Well, even though we had no electricity this morning, and I was stunned that I couldn't have my tea, I could not compute the injustice....so I hopped on the scale. I Was surprised, I had NOT gained all of the 17 pounds back! I was up about a pound and a bit more. So, brushing myself off, back in the saddle and plunging ahead!
day1 ??
day2 197.4
day3 194.2 (-3.2)
day4 190.2 (-4)
day5 188. (-2.2)
day6 187.1 (-.9)
day7 184.5 (-2.6)
day8 183.4 ...

of the scale, but tomorrow is the day! I will swallow my fear and get on it. Whatever it says I will be ok with. I am afraid of how much I gained while i was 'kind of protocol'....now honestly I know i could not have gained 17 pounds back. But still........

Back home finally....it really brought home how important habit is for this to work for me. Still TOM and I am being a wuss and staying away from the scale. I figure I am losing whether I am weighing or not. I will weigh on friday. My rx was delivered, but clearly I didn't do all the research needed, I didn't know that you take more sub-lingual than injections. So I only ordered 5000, thinking I would just for 23 days. Now I realize it is only good for about 10 days. (limited budget) so, can you ...

A change in dosage makes! I am not crawling out of my skin trying to feed my body and thinking about food all the time! Beth suggested I stop a few doses and see if my hunger gets better or worse, it got better (went away) so I lowered my dose! Amazing difference, I was ready to go *%#@* it! and resign myself to stay at this weight!
Phew!
Got the shipment confirmation , I should get my SL Tuesday or wed, which is amazing since I just ordered it on Thursday night. I am going to continue ...

While I wait for my rx to come in, I am taking the advice of Beth who suggested I skip a few doses of my homeopathic hcg to see what happens to my hunger, if it goes away, my dose was too high, if it gets worse, I need more. So here goes.....I am such a right brained person and there is such a scientific bent to this whole process, its giving me a headache! (oh wait, that might be the hcg....!!!)

I ordered my SL HCG from cheap hcg last night, its on its way (or should be sometime in the near future) I am struggling to stay on protocol while still on the hhcg, granted it is also TOM and I am house sitting, so in a different environment, during the winter I work from home, so I think that may play into things, its so easy to get distracted! I am mixing things up a wee bit while I wait, one meal I do on protocol, the meat and veggies, the other I am going to do a green smoothie with protein ...

oy! ok, last weekend I had a planned cheat, and something about it set me off, I have to admit, for the most part I have been very very hungry, adjusted the dosage a bit, it didn't seem to help one way or the other. I have continued to take the HHCG, but have been a bit off protocol, am just soooo hungry. I usually eat a raw vegan diet, but put that aside and went on protocol, so i don't know if it is the homeopathic stuff isn't working for me, or that i didn't load properly (which I didn't, just ...

WEll, Yesterday was the first day that I didn't want to eat, I didn't feel hunger, almost 2 weeks in. I have just started a new batch of hhcg drops. I wonder if thats the difference? I just know a few stalls are coming and trying to prepare myself emotionally for it. Its weird how quickly I became attached to the scale, I am tying not to let it determine how i feel about myself.

day1 ??
day2 197.4
day3 194.2 (-3.2)
day4 190.2 (-4)
day5 188. (-2.2)
...

I had been so tired that I had stopped working out, which I love...so that got me depressed, which made me even more tired and hating the protocol...but I upped my protein thanks to what some people on this forum suggested. Went to the gym yesterday .loved it and did great. feel like a completely different person! Dropped another pound today, down to 181.5...I just want to get below 180.....come on, 1.5 pounds......come on!

day1 ??
day2 197.4
day3 194.2 (-3.2)
...

Well, I had the miracle noodles last night and FINALLY felt a little full. and was down today! Whew.
More energy at the gym also.
Upped my water and feel better.
I figured that the 40 days are going to go by whether or not I do this, its my choice if I am slimmer or not.
I cannot wait until I am below 180, I think it has been close to 20 yrs!!!