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I am not one to "blog" these kinds of things but I'm feeling down and desperate. I started my HCG injections last Thursday night at the naturopath's office. I was 131 pounds and expecting my time of month in the next couple of days (I was bloated). Anyway, I hate my regular normal food all of Friday and Saturday and started on P2 diet Sunday. Egg whites, veggies, extra lean ground beef, melba toast, that whole thing. I was doing well and I weighed myself yesterday at 124.4. I don't know ...

NOw, I'm pissed. This ectra pound has been creeping up on me slowly. Today I weighed and I gained .4. Now I'm officially 154 after teetering in 153 for the past 4 days. I did not cheat! I never cheat. What the hell is going on? I'm so sick of this. If I don't lose tomorrow then I will cheat. I'm so over my body fighting against me.

This morning I woke up to a 1 pound gain and a major headache due to TOM.. He showed up a day early. But that wasn't the part that broke my heart. I was condensing my signature and I realized that from April 12-18, I only lost .2!!!! Are you kidding me!!! I had a day where I lost .8, but I also had days of gains due to being sick, but that was only two days!!! the only time I lose a pound or more is on apple days... I can't live my life on freaking apples.

If I've ever lost faith ...