Hi Everyone,
It's been a bit of a challenging week for me. I've just completed 4 full weeks of injections and am 2 days shy of doing 4 weeks of the
VLCD (mind you it's 800 or less, not the 500 most of you are doing).
In all honesty, I don't think I have ever been so serious and disciplined about a diet before. I don't cheat. I had a half glass of red wine this weekend because I was away celebrating a friends birthday but my naturopath said that was okay to do (I checked beforehand) and I stayed well under the 800 calories. I also biked for 2 hours the very next day. I was very proud of myself for sticking to the program and while I didn't feel hungry I certainly had some feels of deprivation but they were outweighed by the fact that I looked and felt a lot better than I did a month ago.
That said, my scale doesn't seem to be budging. I've lost a total of approximately 13 pounds. For 4 weeks I don't think that's enough. Certainly not based on the low calorie/carb diet I've been keeping. The worst of it is that the last week I think I've maybe gone down 1.5 pounds. Max. And then there's TOM. Prior to this diet I had not had it for about 4 months. Other than the occasional few days of very light flow. Week #2 into the HCG injections it arrived and with a vengeance. Fortunately I don't get cramps much or a lot of the other problems that typically come during TOM but it was incredibly heavy and lasted almost 7 days, which is unheard of for me. So okay, I get through that, have a one week reprive and then back it comes! Week #2 and Week #4 of this program has been TOM. Which may or may not explain my slow weight loss. I don't know. I'm discouraged. My doc said that I could stop taking the injections and it would stop but I'm apprehensive to do this, fearing that my appetite could surge and I'll have lost all the ground I've worked so hard at.
And to top it all off, I've had sugar cravings which I almost never get, even when I'm not restricting calories! I can handle them but it's confusing.
Tonight I had to go to a company BBQ. I offered to bring Greek Salad because I knew I could eat that and had a chicken burger all on it's own. No point in torturing you all with the food that was there but it was quite a spread, none of which I felt comfortable eating. I ended up leaving early, slipping out so no one would notice, just because I was so discouraged that I was not only unable to enjoy the food like everyone else, but also because it felt like I can't seem to do enough to lose the weight I want to while everyone else around me is consuming alcohol, samosas, burgers, brownies, cupcakes ... blah blah blah. Kind of like damned if I do and damned if I don't!
Okay, I guess I'll stop complaining now. I'm sure you've all felt this at some time or another. It definitely sucks.

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