The Stabilization of MissM

Good morning and happy Monday!

I noticed this morning when I reread part of my journal that I began the habit of taking walks after meals one month ago today--and I've stuck with it. Feeling good about positive changes this morning.

Yesterday BF came over and he helped me get a lawn mower and a dehumidifier and fix my garage door. I had prepared a dry brined chicken to roast with potatoes, fennel, and lemon, and bone broth for cream of broccoli soup plus some truffle mousse pate and low sugar wine for our evening meal. When we were out buying the lawn mower, the store is next to a chinese buffet BF used to frequent, and he suggested we go there for dinner so I didn't have to cook. I was hesitant, of course, but we swung by and the place was totally packed--at a time when our state is making national news for our skyrocketing COVID-19 case and death numbers. So, we skipped it and enjoyed a really lovely, decadent meal together at home followed by a long sunset walk in the rain wherein we were framed by the strongest, most glorious rainbow either of us had ever seen. Then we watched a movie cuddled up on the couch together. A perfect day, the memory of which must hold me over until I see him again, hopefully next weekend.

But I feel like I'm making progress in the area of making better choices with BF, and he's starting to accept more and more that these lifestyle choices of mine are permanent. He'll still push now and again because he finds it amusing, so I must accept that as well as the fact that the food boundaries will always be mind to hold. I mean, they're my boundaries, my choice, so why would I expect otherwise?

And I also had made the decision that yesterday was to be a more relaxed day of eating for me. And I'm delighted to discover that decision did not mean my going off the rails. I made a delightful brunch of chaffles (keto waffles made with eggs and cheese and almond flour) with eggs and bacon and chai with real cream, and I was still little hungry so I also had a little yogurt and grain-free granola with added sprouted seeds and cacao nibs; after a workout I drank some collagen protein and had a nibble of clean liverwurst (no fillers and grass fed); then the dinner with BF. Definitely decadent and very satisfying; however, I never ate past satisfaction, I ate only when hungry, and I didn't feel like I was dieting in the least.

Now today I'm tightening the reins a bit, deliberately so: shortening my eating window and keeping more tightly to my food template and on the low-carb/keto end of things. I'm halfway to my step goal after my fasted walk, and am planning on a barre workout as well. Will likely do some meal planning as well as work.

It's a beautiful day here, and I feel as if I'm in a very good place. Happy to share that with you, and hope you're all doing quite well as well. Happy Monday! XO

What a lovely time, MissM!

I need to make those waffles again. They are so good.

The boundary thing is funny between my husband and me. He will say something when I go "off book" and it annoys the heck out of me LOL All he says is something like, "Hey, you are/have been off your diet lately." I should really learn to listen to it as a nudge to get back to cleaner eating. #resolutions

Have a great day!

You Sunday sounded amazing and the rainbow a sign from above. What a day to be grateful for!

MissM, I’ve been thinking of you because I discovered the most AMAZING recipe for pudding for P3. It’s made with coconut milk, so it does not contain dairy/cream. You won’t believe what it’s made from...boiled eggs. I wouldn’t have believed it if I hadn’t made it myself, but it’s like witchcraft. The most amazing, silky smooth pudding ever. It tastes awesome. I made it at least 4 times during P3 and even my picky 13 year old liked it. It’s Maria Emmerich’s recipe, here’s a link to it: https://mariamindbodyhealth.com/hard...d-egg-pudding/ you must blend it in a Vitamix until silky smooth, put in fridge and don’t taste it for several hours later (or after overnight). Make sure you use the canned coconut milk. You won’t believe your taste buds. You can half the recipe as well. I bet your BF will love it too.

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Originally Posted by justgitterdone

You Sunday sounded amazing and the rainbow a sign from above. What a day to be grateful for!

MissM, I’ve been thinking of you because I discovered the most AMAZING recipe for pudding for P3. It’s made with coconut milk, so it does not contain dairy/cream. You won’t believe what it’s made from...boiled eggs. I wouldn’t have believed it if I hadn’t made it myself, but it’s like witchcraft. The most amazing, silky smooth pudding ever. It tastes awesome. I made it at least 4 times during P3 and even my picky 13 year old liked it. It’s Maria Emmerich’s recipe, here’s a link to it: https://mariamindbodyhealth.com/hard...d-egg-pudding/ you must blend it in a Vitamix until silky smooth, put in fridge and don’t taste it for several hours later (or after overnight). Make sure you use the canned coconut milk. You won’t believe your taste buds. You can half the recipe as well. I bet your BF will love it too.

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Thank you, JGD! You've never steered me wrong with recipes. I'm going to try this today--and I just ordered a used copy of her cookbook, too!

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What a lovely time, MissM!

I need to make those waffles again. They are so good.

The boundary thing is funny between my husband and me. He will say something when I go "off book" and it annoys the heck out of me LOL All he says is something like, "Hey, you are/have been off your diet lately." I should really learn to listen to it as a nudge to get back to cleaner eating. #resolutions

Have a great day!

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I just discovered chaffles--kinda late to the game! But I got one of those electric mini waffle irons and it's such a lovely little treat to make them. They even work as a kind of sandwich bread, though I use them open-faced. And I used violife dairy-free mozzarella shreds for the cheese and it worked just fine. But they are SO good. A little too good. So I think of them as a brunch treat for the weekend when I'm feeling like it. I'm starting to believe in treats again!

Good awareness about your irritation with your husband when he notices your eating changes. I can imagine why that does piss you off and also how it might help you when he says it to realize that your eating HAS changed, and likely not for the better. We just hate for anyone but us to notice our eating, do we not? I get it.

I think BF is worried I'm eating disordered. Because we only see each other once a week at best, and I eat quite heartily with him, albeit no starches or sugars, he suspects I don't eat when I'm not with him. Yesterday he asked me if I had eaten the day before. And of course I had. It's sweet, his concern, but I do feel I need to be careful about the potential psychological influence. I can foresee my thinking if he thinks I'm "wasting away" as he likes to say, maybe I should go ahead and eat with abandon. Good Lord I can be a complex creature. At least I've lived long enough and observed myself well enough to foresee these landmines. Le sigh.

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Originally Posted by DivineMissM

I just discovered chaffles--kinda late to the game! But I got one of those electric mini waffle irons and it's such a lovely little treat to make them. They even work as a kind of sandwich bread, though I use them open-faced. And I used violife dairy-free mozzarella shreds for the cheese and it worked just fine. But they are SO good. A little too good. So I think of them as a brunch treat for the weekend when I'm feeling like it. I'm starting to believe in treats again!

Good awareness about your irritation with your husband when he notices your eating changes. I can imagine why that does piss you off and also how it might help you when he says it to realize that your eating HAS changed, and likely not for the better. We just hate for anyone but us to notice our eating, do we not? I get it.

I think BF is worried I'm eating disordered. Because we only see each other once a week at best, and I eat quite heartily with him, albeit no starches or sugars, he suspects I don't eat when I'm not with him. Yesterday he asked me if I had eaten the day before. And of course I had. It's sweet, his concern, but I do feel I need to be careful about the potential psychological influence. I can foresee my thinking if he thinks I'm "wasting away" as he likes to say, maybe I should go ahead and eat with abandon. Good Lord I can be a complex creature. At least I've lived long enough and observed myself well enough to foresee these landmines. Le sigh.

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Oh maybe save a week's worth of dishes LOL

But yeah, you do not need to prove that you do not have a disorder by over-eating and whatnot when he is around for sure. Being aware of this landmine is most of the work!

Morning all...
sorry I have been MIA for a few days... Just having a lot going on at the moment and feeling I have very little to report back

MissM you do make me smile.... but seeing BF only once a week fits with the plan that we would eat no starch no sugar during the week and treat ourselves on weekends, but with him not being around on our "weekdays" I can see how you imagine you starving yourself for the ravenous weekend eating haha

You are still going strong girl... I am getting ready mentally for round 3...

You are doing great, MissM. It does make it difficult when those around us just don't understand what we are doing and why we do it. Heck, there are plenty of people who try this protocol and don't understand it. I think we are all a bit eating disordered, and by we, I mean our entire culture. We are taking extreme measures to find a way back to how we are supposed to eat. You are on a great path.

I have yet to try chaffles. They sound great. Sort of like fathead dough in a way.

Stay strong.

Jeff interesting that you say that.... If anyone wants to know about the diet I send them pounds and inches and a booklet I did for friends I have introduced to HCG and I tell them straight.... This is not a diet as you know diets it is a mind shift and there is no such a thing as a small indiscretion.... if you cheat it is unforgiving.... My neighbour was actually scared because I kept checking up on how she prepared food and what she ate.... but after a successful P3 and P4 she now knows how easy it is to go wrong...

Another lady collected something from me that I sold on Marketplace, seriously Obese, so she brought the weight issue up and I told her if she is willing to commit, I can help her.... she has been nagging me since Sunday and I sent her both the documents and told her not even to think about ordering till she has read it all and understand it.... HCG is not a crutch it is an opportunity to change your choices going forward

I actually tell some friends not to even bother because I know their habits haha

I hear you on that, Flirty. I am a believer in this protocol (I normally slip up and refer to it as a diet, even though it is not that) and am a loyal advocate. Only problem is that I have yet to be able to talk anybody into walking that path. I think most people are not ready to make that commitment. And I have sent countless links to pounds and inches. There are people I know who would greatly benefit. Knowing it is one thing. Following through is another. Every time I see those sad people hitting the gyms and walking trails in January my heart goes out to them.

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Originally Posted by DivineMissM

I just discovered chaffles--kinda late to the game! But I got one of those electric mini waffle irons and it's such a lovely little treat to make them. They even work as a kind of sandwich bread, though I use them open-faced. And I used violife dairy-free mozzarella shreds for the cheese and it worked just fine. But they are SO good. A little too good. So I think of them as a brunch treat for the weekend when I'm feeling like it. I'm starting to believe in treats again!

Good awareness about your irritation with your husband when he notices your eating changes. I can imagine why that does piss you off and also how it might help you when he says it to realize that your eating HAS changed, and likely not for the better. We just hate for anyone but us to notice our eating, do we not? I get it.

I think BF is worried I'm eating disordered. Because we only see each other once a week at best, and I eat quite heartily with him, albeit no starches or sugars, he suspects I don't eat when I'm not with him. Yesterday he asked me if I had eaten the day before. And of course I had. It's sweet, his concern, but I do feel I need to be careful about the potential psychological influence. I can foresee my thinking if he thinks I'm "wasting away" as he likes to say, maybe I should go ahead and eat with abandon. Good Lord I can be a complex creature. At least I've lived long enough and observed myself well enough to foresee these landmines. Le sigh.

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First, I have to say what a lovely post about your day on Sunday with BF--beautifully written. So happy for you.

Now, I have to reply about last paragraph, I know exactly what you are saying, or I think I do. For me, once I lose weight and all the compliments come my way, people acting like you don't need to lose anything else, telling you how great you look-- I have to really fight relaxing my eating habits that I'm working so hard to form. I think I mentioned on another post at some time, I almost would rather not get all those compliements. (But then I do enjoy them) But sometimes they really seem to be counterproductive for me, and they can affect me psychologically, and encourage free rein to just go ahead and eat some things I shouldn't. But like you said, being aware of these little "landmines" can be helpful! When I look at people who don't look to have weight issues, I think they are so lucky, but actually most make their own luck, by making the proper, balanced choices in their diets. You are such an inspiration to so many of us reading your posts! Thank you.

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Originally Posted by wilsonblack

I hear you on that, Flirty. I am a believer in this protocol (I normally slip up and refer to it as a diet, even though it is not that) and am a loyal advocate. Only problem is that I have yet to be able to talk anybody into walking that path. I think most people are not ready to make that commitment. And I have sent countless links to pounds and inches. There are people I know who would greatly benefit. Knowing it is one thing. Following through is another. Every time I see those sad people hitting the gyms and walking trails in January my heart goes out to them.

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Boy, you said it! A lot people act like you're crazy with the protocol. I've given up telling people about it. Like you, I know they could benefit from the protocol, but they have to want to do it--it's really a committment , somedays not difficult, but some days it can be quite challenging.