Originally Posted by
DivineMissM
Yesterday was a good day. I ate well and to satisfaction, and I kept to my mindful eating practices as well as my activity goals for myself.
Weight remained the same this morning, at 132.8, which is still 2.8 above LIW of 130. Not feeling all that much about it, and I think that's a very good thing.
I am committed to this process of discovery and just seeing where my body settles in to stabilize. I'm certainly not throwing in the towel, though, and I'm also fighting anxiety and fear with a calm, benign acceptance of the fact that this is all new territory. I've never gotten to this low a weight as an adult human, so of course it makes sense that there's all kinds of pushback from this sweet body that's never known this place before. We're in a negotiation at the moment. It's not a fight. And we'll come to a cordial agreement at the end of P3, I expect. Even if we both have to compromise a little, that's perfectly fine. My aim is to simply use this time to settle into best practices for moving forward long term, especially with regard to mindful eating and appropriate activity levels and understanding what my body and mind need to be satisfied and well fed. That sweet spot.
And the fact is, I just need more time to get there. But that's what P3 is all about, right?
I did have a significant BM after I weighed this morning, but that was assisted by coffee, so I didn't even bother weighing again. However, it's entirely possible my weight is within two pounds above LIW proper. So that's all right.
It occurred to me this morning that I might be best served by spending a little more time in gratitude as far as my body is concerned. Simply enjoy being thinner and healthier and recognizing how far i've come--rather than focusing solely on what needs to be tweaked, where I'd like to be, in what ways I feel I've failed. I believe I've been spending a bit too much energy being hard on myself, as Yvonne describes our habitual way with ourselves, and if I'm to achieve the deeper goals I'm really aiming for, then I need to begin practicing more gratitude for what is, and that will invite a spirit of abundance and love as opposed to scarcity and fear.
So, I'll be adding that to the mix for the next few days. I think it will do me a world of good.
ps--I stumbled upon a really delicious sauce I made up yesterday that could be used for delicioufying just about any savory thing. A kind of variation of chimichurri meets vinaigrette, I drizzled it on salad, tilapia, and brussels sprouts to wonderful effect. It was this: a garlic clove, a handful of chopped fresh parsley and basil, half a lemon squeezed, 3 T evoo, and a spoonful of harissa (my newest fabulous Thrive find--a spicy, smoky Middle-Eastern red pepper paste, which I also added to the leftover cashew cream I'd made for the soup I didn't end up needing to transform it into a kind of vegan queso with a few other additions), and salt and pepper. Whirled up with the immersion blender, it became a creamy, flavorful sauce fit for the queen that I am sometimes. ;)
TGIF, dear ones! We spring forward this weekend, and I sure feel hope in the air. . . .
