Thank you all for your comments. No Lisa, unfortunately, my husband was like this before we got married. That was the first time he swore he was going to change and wanted to be a family man. We went to couple's counseling and talked about until I was blue in the face. He seemed to get alot out of the sessions and acknowledged his issue with alcohol. He doesn't drink every day, but when he does, he really does it and can't stop, no matter who is telling him to. Thankfully I had a very easy pregnancy because he had me so stressed out that I can't believe my blood pressure stayed so low. He did it all throughout my pregnancy. Then I had Bash and it was a weekly thing. One night when Bash was not even a month old, he went out. I was basically bawling, asking him not to go. I had pretty bad PPD. He went anyway. I looked at his phone the next day or day after and found texts from another girl. They were talking about how great it was to be "out" with each other even though they can't really hang out together but atleast were in the same place. Then she asked him to meet her at a friend's house for a goodnight kiss. He agreed replying "I can't stay though". On this night, myself and three of his friends were calling him and none of us could get ahold of him. He claimed he was driving around clearing his head. After they "parted", there were more texts from her saying she loved him, she really loved him and one text from him to her saying "me too, more than imaginable". I wanted to leave after that. I was so hurt. He tried to give me some bs story and because I was so depressed I just went with it because I didn't know how to leave. The drinking and the disrespectful treatment continued and I left him and went to my mom's on NYE. Again, he promised he would change. He would completely stop drinking and would never go out after work again. I moved back in late March. I also found out that after 3 weeks of being separated, he slept with an ex. She told me. Contacted me on facebook and told me. She even sent me hundreds of pages of her cell phone bill that showed all the texts he sent to her. He's lucky I could't see what they said, just dates and times. There's alot of yellow highlighter on those pages. So, I'm back in the same boat. But like I said, right now I just can't leave him knowing he would have Bash by himself. Maybe after he's a year old, I don't know. I do want more kids, but I certainly don't want them with him. He's a bad role model and he drives home drunk all the time. He does love Sebastian and he kind of knows how to take care of (for the most part), but he lets him cry for alot longer than I do. He doesn't find it necessary to feed him on any kind of schedule. He waits till he's basically whining and crying for it. Oh God, so that's most of it in a nutshell. He's a real winner! Best thing he ever did though was give me Bash, and he is the best baby anyone could ever ask for. Secretly I think God knows I had my plate full with my husband and thought he'd go easy on me with the baby, haha.