I fully admit this funk is based on warped mentality! I love my mom, but she has always made the harmful mistake of telling me that I would never get married unless I lost weight. That is the tape running in my head since I was a teenager. These funks are me giving in to that message instead of fighting back. But you are right, this is about my health and feeling good about myself. Which, most days I feel really great about my progress, and even have glimpses in the mirror when I think, "damn! I look good!"Cazspice: You know I know how ya feel! You'll get through, it's never too late. As as my signature says... you'll be around in 6 months time either way, so why not make that 6 month future a better one? I get like that too. Even though I've now lost about 40lb my brain still says "you're still fat, lose faster"... this is such warped mentality when the alternative could've been losing nothing at all! I also get really down about what I've done to myself, i.e. my arms will always be flabby, I'll never look goo on the beach because of my skin etc etc.... but what's the alternative? For me, I'm doing this for my health either way!
Thanks everyone for your support and ideas! These bumps in the emotional road to weight loss are rough, but having cyber-support is awesome!!