Thread: Lovely Losers 2019 - Optimistic in OCTOBER!!!

Spent another night in the hospital with Mom. They transferred her to a new room at Midnight! Woke her up from a sound sleep and hauled her down the elevator to a different floor. New nurses, etc. NOT nice.

But I got about 3 1/2 hours sleep which sure helped! I came straight to work from the hospital with a change of shirt and my fingers through my hair. I brought eyeliner but didn't bring a magnifying mirror so it just adds to the Halloween look. I ain't pretty today! LOL.

I didn't get to go home in between, so no weigh in and no dose. So guess this round is toast. Hey, I was IN the 130 pound for a few minutes. It will have to be close enough.

Right now, I'm just trying to stay on my feet.

Onward!
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Good morning, Lovely Lurkers!
Pearly, I hope you got some sleep and your mom is doing better. Happy early Halloween!
It's P2D3 for me and I feel good. I'm just happy to be losing instead of gaining.
Hope TESS being is kind to all!

Kar! I'm starting to think we are the last of the Lose-hicans here! Where'd eveh buddy go?

I'm here to support you in P2 even if it's only just us! So glad your round started off so well.

For me, better sleep last night at the hospital (I'm AT the hospital, my Mom is IN the hospital!) as not as much drama and beeping etc. I'm not eating all that great, not weighing, no time. I just swing by my house to feed the poor little dogs who are very lonely! I officially am on P3 today, which is good because at best, I have been eating P3 since Sunday.

Onward!
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Pearly, thanks for the support! Your little doggies have each other, so they can't be too lonely. A coworker friend is getting a miniature schnauzer puppy later this month. Of course, I thought of you. Auntie Kar is already begging to dog-sit.
Pretty, thanks for checking in. Glad P3 is going well. Continued prayers for your daughter.
I'm still loving P2 week 1.
Hope everyone has a great day!

Wooo hooo, Kar! Love those week one numbers!

Pretty, so sorry. Prayers for you both and your family.

I'm still sleeping at the hospital. Mom still loopy from drugs. She was lucid for about an hour last night, but in pain waiting for more drugs. It's a terrible cycle. She suffers so even when drugged but then can't figure out why. She keeps saying she itches and after doing everything under the sun to help her with that to no avail, starting to think it that in her out-of-it-ness she just knows she is uncomfortable and thinks it is itching, when it is really pain only knocked down a bit from the pain pills.

I have NO IDEA where I am right now. Eating what I can grab when I can. This is an example of sometimes all you can do is all you can do, and go on from there.

Cold weather today. Yesterday, 77 degrees, today 22 and on its way down with snow coming. Gotta love fall in Colorado.

Onward.
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I am still here, dealing with the "Public Safety Power Shutoff", day 3 with no power and the estimate for restoring power is just before midnight Sunday evening. :'( Still flirting with the P2 foods but stopped the drops because I wasn't committed to the protocol. Working up to being there again. Still sitting about 5 pounds below where I my pre-load weight, so not bad for 5 days, but not what I hoped from myself!

The power shut-off has been super frustrating because we haven't had wind, and this was supposed to be a major wind event. They keep extending our estimated restoration time, and I lose $100/day income as a nanny because my employer (who IS paid time off) isn't working. She is actually in Tahoe right now, enjoying her time off where there is power to keep her kids warm!) So far, I've only lost $200, but for me, that is a lot. We are struggling financially with my disabilities and no SSDI. Hubby is working 3 jobs and I work 3 days/week. Then we have a janitorial account that we do twice/week at night. One more year of this should see us able to cut back a bit so hubby doesn't develop major health issues too!

Anyways, I am using the time I have off to catch up around the house. Also checking in on some local shut-ins, cooking for those with all electric houses, etc. Got my taxes finished and ready to take to the Post Office on Monday. So much clutter and we need to do MAJOR downsizing before next year's move, so when I have extra time, energy and a lower-pain day that all coincide, I use them to pick a small area and ATTACK IT! I feel so overwhelmed when I look at all that needs to be done and how little I can do while still trying to work, but I know it will get done... if I don't give up and keep chipping away at it a little at a time. I AM making progress...

So, that is what is keeping me from being mentally ready to get back into P2 with full commitment. I just feel so overwhelmed with my life, and when I am in pain at night and can't sleep, I feed the pain with things I shouldn't. Hubby's food, or even extra servings of my P2 food... Things I have firmly resolved in my heart (I thought) to leave alone. But when I get in that mental zone, nothing seems to matter to me but eating, and then I feel terrible.

I am doing some meditation that I learned from pain management. Unfortunately my pain gets severe, and all I can take is tylenol, so distraction helps with pain, but I know it's only temporary. Still, in the moment, I want that temporary distraction from the pain SO MUCH that I make poor decisions. I am working on this emotionally, and know I can find another way to deal with the problem. I did before, but food has such a draw for me right now!

Well, I will be unable to connect for a while now. Not sure why my new phone won't connect with data (maybe towers aren't working during power outage, either), but friend's generator is about to run out of gas... so I will check back in next week.

Stay strong!

Tight, so sorry for the extra problems with the power. Like you needed one more stress!

I do hear you about the distraction eating. As I'm dealing with my poor Mom's suffering, I swear I;ve become a shark: I never stop eating! I try to make more good choices than bad, but that's about the highest level I can get to right now. And foods that I normally eat and like, ugh. Can't look at them: cottage cheese? Cherry tomatoes? Boiled egg? THAT's what I brought for lunch? What was I thinking! I want a cheeseburger!!

Sigh.
Onward!
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