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I'm New!

I'm not hungry - not at all. What I'm fighting right now is the addiction and the wanting to eat bad things. I stopped myself this morning. I took my daughter to the market and instead of doing what was in my head, I bought a large iced tea and took myself home. One trigger averted - boredom. Now, hopefully I can stay strong when stress comes flying at me. I've lost weight already. I haven't jumped on the scale though because I'm afraid of becoming obsessed. I'll weigh myself on Sunday before church

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Okay, today is the day I was anxiously awaiting. After three days of forced feed to the point I wanted to toss the contents of my belly, I'm here. I have a little bit of hunger, but do not know if it's emotional or physical. I've had three cups of green tea and the thought of anymore makes me a little queasy, so I'm thinking my hunger is emotional. I see my therapist today to chat about my eating habits and solutions to not be so preoccupied with stuffing my feelings. I can't NOT think about it

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WOW, I said that out loud. I'm a bulimic and I have wasted so much time and money trying to win at HCG but fail because I cannot control my mental health. I have lost so much weight on HCG, but then go bananas at the slightest emotional trigger. I pray and pray for strength to NOT fall off and be able to move on the phase 3 then to phase 4, but cannot get past my own WANTS.

It's all my fault - girl of little faith. So, I'm writing this blog to just bear my heart and rally some support.

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