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just wanted to give an update and let everyone know I'm still pressing on. I'm now at 239. I was so embarrassed about my last blog and I had to do some soul searching. I had time to define things. I can say I'm starting to feel like myself again and I haven't felt like this in awhile. From the beginning of time I only remember getting tough love. I realized that's why im so hard on myself. I realize just because ive lived through some traumatic things I don't have to have a traumatic life. Before
At first I wasnt going to confess because I feel horrible about it. But I went over board tonight. I feel like I failed myself after only a week. Though I am going to get up and push on forward in the am I still need to vent my feelings. It was not an emotional eat. if it was I really couldn't tell I WAs so overwhelmed with the smell thought and taste. My boyfriend went to poker and he Brought me food back after I told him no.. He brought broccoli and beef w/o the rice which I see that he tried
Today is my first day back on the diet. It has been a some what jittery morning for me. However I feel excited for the days to come. Got on the scale at a 253.4 Im ready for the highs and the lows, uglys and prettys. This has been more than a journey for me, it has been a battle. I deserve to be healthy and happy. I thought that I was ready for the dramatic weight loss a year ago but I wasn't. I wasn't ready to give up the food the emotion that came before and after the food. I was afraid of change.
So I am finally back. I must say that I have created an array of anxiety around this diet. I gained most of what i lost back. I realized that I really cannot do this on my own. THe support love and encouragement I had here is what helped me to keep on moving. I dont know where I went wrong. But in regards to weightloss I am in a very dark place. It hurts because sometimes I feel I will never accomplish this dream. My dream is to one day look in the mirror and completely feel accepted. I always tell
Hey yall! Hope everyone is losing! I have been on the drops and I found an affordable site for the injections and am thinking about trying them. I need to know how much better they work and how much do I take and how to do it all. ALso what amount to purchase I went to the website and just got so confused about what to get because Im new at injections... any and ALL advice will help!