I went to a birthday party with a friend of mine last night, and we were in the kitchen where this little kids table and chairs were. I jokingly said my butt would break it, and the girl said "you'll be fine, you're tiny!" It was said so casually, and that's the first time someone has said that to me in a long time. I mean, people close to me have said I look good, but it's different coming from a stranger. I don't know, it made me feel good.
I really do. I like the weight I lose during it, but I'm seriously miserable the entire phase. I envy those who never have dosage/hunger problems, because that's always a given for me at least half the round, if not sporadically throughout the entire thing. I have to readjust every single round, usually multiple times throughout. I hate feeling nauseatingly empty and wanting to badly to just be able to eat another fruit or piece of meat and not being able to. It's torture. I know at some point
I cooked a NY steak then topped it with a slice of swiss and some homemade guacamole, put it between two toasted oopsie rolls with a homemade garlic aioli spread on each and garnished it with a bit of lettuce and red onion. Hooooooly crap, literally every single bite I was saying "oh my GOD" repeatedly with my mouth full. It was pretty messy, but SO. FRIGGIN. GOOD. I can't wait to eat it again.
This is why I keep gaining on P3! My mouth wants to ingest 239084203948 calories of delicious food and my body is like, uh, I don't think so buddy - 1.4 gain overnight for being a fatty at heart! I just made muffins for a few breakfast meals during the week and pretty much ate the equivalent of two muffins worth of batter in the process. WTF. I have NO self control anymore, and that's foreign to me - I used to get griped at because I barely ate! Now, if I want it, I eat it, even though I know
I hate my body and my body hates me. It's been four days now since that crazy binge and two corrections + a high protein day has only yielded a 2.2 lb loss. While that technically leaves me within the 2 lb window, it's only by .2 lbs, which is why I did the stupid high protein day yesterday. I also took magnesium citrate as I haven't had a proper BM is longer than I could remember and constantly felt bloated and backed up. I thought for sure the scale would budge. Nope. Nothing. I just find
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